Rev's Lapse of Reason

If I Must...

2008-06-27T09:05:00.000-07:00

H'ok. So. I haven't been on here in years. Literally. But then Anna decided to challenge me, so I must step forward:

The Rules:List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they’re not any good, but they must be songs you’re really enjoying now, shaping your spring summer. Post these instructions in your blog along with your seven songs. Then tag seven other people to see what they’re listening to.

1. "Can't Stop" by Maroon 5. I don't know why but it just seemed to fit for me. It sounds a lot like how I used to feel about a certain someone. But that's gone. So yeah...on to #2...

2. "Never See Your Face Again" by Maroon 5. Same band, same dude it reminds me of. Weird. Plus I just made a fun video to it not too long ago. That, and I'm kinda addicted to the CD at the moment. =P

3. "Shake It" by Metro Station. Yeah. Scary isn't it? I swear, the first time I heard this song I laughed. I hated it. I listened to it about three more times on the radio between Ohio and here and then I loved it. Funny how Ohio can warp the mind.

4. "Ten Years Gone" by Led Zeppelin. Ok, so this described my winter/spring and it's continuing into spring/summer. Yeah. I love it, get over it.

5. "How I Saved Roosevelt / Ballad of Guiteau" from Assassins. Ok, so that's technically two songs, but I believe they should be listed as one. Anna got me started on the musical while we were in Starkville, but I really got to love it at work where it has become one of my favorite CDs on my computer. I'm already figuring out how to direct it. I want to direct this show SOOO bad...if I can't be in it. =)

6. "Saved Again" by someone I don't remember. I first heard this from Ryan's mix and it became stuck in my head. So I listened to it over and over and over. Quite fun and annoying to others at the same time. But I love the lyrics and I love the beat.

7. "Love Song" again, don't know who sings it. It's another new song that normally I probably wouldn't like. But I love it and I need to get it on CD or download it from iTunes or something. The lyrics just fit my mood.

Now to come up with people. Should be fun since nobody reads my blogs:

Courtney
Ryan
Travis
(can't use Anna again...darn...)
Ava
Kelli
Kate
Nick

Ha. I bet none will post.

Just to see if this'll work...

2007-01-04T19:43:00.000-08:00

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Cause you had a bad day...

2006-05-21T15:02:00.000-07:00

Well, more like a bad week. This has certainly been one of those rollercoaster weeks. It's wonderful to know that school is almost over, and I only have one year left before college. But it was also very depressing. For one, my pet bird, Sky, died on Wednesday. It seemed that everyone wanted to talk about birds that day though I hadn't told anybody about it at the time. Then I told the boy I loved that I loved him, and I don't think he wanted to hear it. Oh well, that didn't depress me too much actually. What depressed me the most was the fact all of my senior friends were leaving. Then I found out there are some pretty bad fights going on in my family behind my back. There's not much I can do about it. I just have to wait till it clears up. Then I nearly lost one of my friends. He had a horrible car accident yesterday, but he survived it. While it gave him a new awakening, it also made me realize how quickly life can be taken from a person...Now I must await the horrors of next week...FINALS...But after everything that's happend, I think I'll be able to manage...

Prom Night...

2006-04-27T15:21:00.000-07:00

It's hard to believe it has almost been a week since prom. It was very eventful.My date spent most of his time with his girlfriend who came with my ex-boyfriend. Then they left me. Alot of people think I'm crazy for not being really upset and p-oed at them, but were they really in the wrong? Anyways, it was really a mixed blessing. I got to dance with the guy I've liked for over two years for quite a while. At the beginning the perfect song played as I watched my crush dance with another girl...

"You're beautiful. You're beautiful.You're beautiful, it's true.I saw you face in a crowded place,And I don't know what to do,'Cause I'll never be with you."

But then when my date left, my crush found me and danced with me, then another perfect song came on....

"You're all I'm thinking of,
I praise the Lord above,
For sending me your love,
I cherish every hug,
I really love you
And all my life, baby, baby,
I've prayed for someone like you,
And I thank God that I,
that I finally found you, baby
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do, love me
You're all that I ever known,
when you smile on your face all I see is a glow,
You picked me up when I was down
You're all that I ever known,
when you smile on your face all I see is a glow,
You picked me up when I was down
and I hope that you feel the same way too,
Yes I pray that you do love me too
All my life, I've prayed for someone like you,
And I thank God that I,
that I finally found you
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
Yes, I pray that you do love me too"

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2006-04-22T05:11:00.000-07:00

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Woot! It's Party Time!!!!

2006-04-22T05:00:00.000-07:00

Well, no real parties...But...I scored a 30 the first time I took the ACT!!!! YEAH!!!! (And there was much rejoicing...yeah...)And tonite is prom (which it will be "Raining on Prom Night") and today is auditions for another show! So much stuff going on....Oh well.

Another depressing ending, only for a new beginning...

2006-01-30T16:02:00.000-08:00

Well, Saturday was the last performance of The Good Doctor. Yes, no more Madame B yelling at Cherdyakov. We did have a good run though. Now we are going to be starting the Orestia or Our Town. We're not too sure which. It all depends on how many guys we have.Which we don't have many...Oh well.

A Really Cool Song That I Love to Listen to....(It's great for this rainy day...)

2006-01-17T15:43:00.000-08:00

There's a window by the bedroom door that never will be opened
If you spend the whole day looking out and never look within
And your lover and your mother and your father have been hopin'
That you find the truths you're looking for by searching deep within
So sad about me, so sad about me, so sad about me
I'm sad about you
There's a reason why the sunrise sets and friends and loved ones leave us
There's a method to the madness like a future to your past
And your lover and your brother and your sister should believe us
'cause the mysteries beyond our reach are firmly in our grasp (Anything is possible)
so sad about me, so sad about me, so sad about me
I'm sad about you
In the morning when you wake yourself you wonder what you're doing
as you rub your eyes so violently while falling out of bed
Is there nothing educational in words that you are chewing
as you seek the soothing solace of a friendly shower head
But I really must admit that I am glad that I am living
There were times when I would pray to God and ask that I was not
And I've learned that taking isn't really half as much as giving
But the secret to your wisdom is the oneness in your soul.

For All My Friends Out There...

2006-01-07T05:50:00.000-08:00

There are places I'll remember
All my life though some have changed
Some forever not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places have their moments
With lovers and friends I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life I've loved them all
But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more
In my life I love you more

Some classic Queen...

2006-01-04T13:53:00.000-08:00

Can anybody find me somebody to love?
Each morning I get up I die a little
Can barely stand on my feet
Take a look in the mirror and cry
Lord what you're doing to me
I have spent all my years in believing you
But I just can't get no relief,Lord!
Somebody, somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love?
I work hard every day of my life
I work till I ache my bones
At the end I take home my hard earned pay all on my own -
I get down on my knees
And I start to pray
Till the tears run down from my eyes
Lord - somebody - somebody
Can anybody find me - somebody to love?
(He works hard)Everyday -
I try and I try and I try
-But everybody wants to put me down
They say I'm goin' crazy
They say I got a lot of water in my brain
Got no common senseI got nobody left to believe
Yeah - yeah yeah yeah Oh Lord
Somebody - somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love?
Got no feel, I got no rhythm
I just keep losing my beat
I'm ok, I'm alright
Ain't gonna face no defeat
I just gotta get out of this prison cell
Someday I'm gonna be free, Lord!
Find me somebody to love
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

A Really Pretty Song That I've Been Listening To...

2006-01-03T11:59:00.000-08:00

In every heart there is a room
A sanctuary safe and strong
To heal the wounds from lovers past
Until a new one comes along
I spoke to you in cautious tones
You answered me with no pretense
And still I feel I said too much
My silence is my self defense
And every time I've held a rose
It seems I only felt the thorns
And so it goes, and so it goes
And so will you soon I suppose
But if my silence made you leave
Then that would be my worst mistake
I will share this room with you
And you can have this heart to break
And this is why my eyes are closed
It's just as well for all I've seen
And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows
So I would choose to be with you
That's if the choice were mine to make
But you can make decisions too
And you can have this heart to break
And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows

"And So It Goes" by Billy Joel from his Greatest Hits Volume III (Lots of good songs on there)

One of the many songs stuck in my head...

2006-01-02T07:46:00.000-08:00

Where were you when I was burned and broken
While the days slipped by from my window watching
Where were you when I was hurt and I was helpless
Because the things you say and the things you do surround me
While you were hanging yourself on someone else's words
Dying to believe in what you heard
I was staring straight into the shining sun
Lost in thought and lost in time
While the seeds of live and the seeds of change were planted
Outside the rain fell dark and slow
While I pondered on this dangerous but irresistable past time
I took a heavenly ride through one silence
I knew the moment had arrived
For killing the past and coming back to life
I took a heavenly ride trough our silence
I knew the waiting had begin
And headed straight... into the shining sun

"Coming Back to Life" by Pink Floyd from the album Division Bell

A New Way to Communicate....FINALLY!!!

2006-01-01T09:57:00.001-08:00

Now that I have somewhat caught up to date...I now have yahoo IM and AIM!!! For yahoo, my id is fadetoblack729....After doing some misspelling, my aim account is now, fadetoblac729....Oh Well....Please contact me, or give me your screen names...at least let me know who you are...you know, that whole sort of thing...

Life sucks...

2005-12-10T16:22:00.000-08:00

Let me make a good suggestion to all my friends and basically anyone in the world....If your parents ever ask you if a divorce would be ok with you...TELL THEM NO!!!! You live in hell for the rest of your life! Unfortunately, I wasn't asked, seeing that I was only three at the time, but I still wish my parents were together. The problem is I get stuck in the middle of EVERYTHING!!! "No she has to be at my house for Christmas." "But she's been at your house for the past 10 years! Can I at least have her for Christmas Eve?" "No, her grandparents are coming over..." You see, this is not dialouge between my two parents, it is messages sent back and forth through me. Eventually it gets to the point where I have to choose...The worst part of it all. No matter what I do, I break somebody's heart. All I have is my car (even though really it is my dad's). I get to sit in it, blare my music, and not worry about disturbing anyone. Plus, it can be anywhere. Not at mom's house or dad's house...but where I want it. Unfortunately, my car is going to be in the shop all of next week...So now I have to find a ride, and I'm minus a life.

One last day...

2005-11-30T15:42:00.000-08:00

This is it...We're going to state. Last year was so much fun, I can't imagine what this year is going to be like. Sure there will be different people, but that makes it even more fun. I hope we do well with the one act. I kind of want to go to SETC, but I kind of don't. That would mean we don't get to do another show... :( But I've never been to SETC, so I would like to go for once...Oh well. I just hope the trip is a safe one and nothing happends.

I've got soul...Another Random Song...

2005-11-30T15:39:00.000-08:00

When there's nowhere else to run
Is there room for one more son
One more sonIf you can hold on
If you can hold on, hold on
I wanna stand up, I wanna let go
You know, you know - no you don't, you don't
I wanna shine on in the hearts of men
I want a meaning from the back of my broken hand
Another head aches, another heart breaks
I am so much older than I can take
And my affection, well it comes and goes
I need direction to perfection, no no no no
Help me out
Yeah, you know you got to help me out
Yeah, oh don't you put me on the blackburner
You know you got to help me out
And when there's nowhere else to run
Is there room for one more son
These changes ain't changing me
The cold-hearted boy I used to be
I got soul, but I'm not a soldier
I got soul, but I'm not a soldier...
Over and out, last call for sin
While everyone's lost, the battle is won
With all these things that I've done
All these things that I've done
If you can hold on
If you can hold on

Yeah!!!!!! I've got a puppy!

2005-11-14T16:57:00.000-08:00

I actually did get a puppy! It's a little poodle named Cody. He is so cute! Ava says I have too much cuteness in my house...yeah right...I've got an annoying sister, an abusive brother, and a dog and a bird that like to talk......A LOT!!! Oh well. You can't always get what you want, but you get what you need....However that song goes...

So sad, so sad...sometimes she feels so sad...

2005-11-02T18:25:00.000-08:00

Unfortunately, the dog is too sick for us to take care of. We live in a stressful house, and if the dog is too overly stressed, it could die...I'm really sad, but I guess it just wasn't ment to be. Dramafest is tomorrow, I hope all my friends will make it! It's okay if they don't, I guess. I'll probably mess up in my duet...I'm so tired....I stayed home for half of school today, but I don't think it was enough...I'm still very sick...Just like the dog...Except I'm not about to die...at least I hope I'm not!
By the way, it turns out it was a palmeranian, but it still looked alot like the dog above...

Puppy!!!

2005-11-02T09:07:00.000-08:00

While I was at school yesterday, this beautiful dog was found, but not in its best shape. The dog had been abused, with fur matted down in odd spots, and a toenail that was growing into it's foot. My mom said we were watching it till today, because this one lady wanted to take it to the vet, but couldn't keep it at her house. My mom also said, we might be keeping it because it is a very sweet and tame dog, it just had a horrible owner. The picture on here is not of the dog, but a pretty close resemblance of what it looks like. I guess my bird Sky is going to have to get used to another pet in the house! ^_^

I'm So Tired...And Sick...sniffle

2005-11-02T09:01:00.000-08:00

(Whilst hacking out my lungs...I have another song to post of how I "basically" feel)

I'm so tired, i haven't slept a wink
I'm so tired, my mind is on the blink
I wonder should i get up and fix myself a drink
No,no,no.
I'm so tired i don't know what to do
I'm so tired my mind is set on you
I wonder should i call you but i know what you'd do
You'd say i'm putting you on
But it's no joke, it's doing me harm
You know i can't sleep, i can't stop my brain
You know it's three weeks, i'm going insane
You know i'd give you everything i've got
For a little peace of mind
I'm so tired, i'm feeling so upset
Although i'm so tired i'll have another cigarette
And curse sir walter raleigh
He was such a stupid git.
You know i can't sleep, i can't stop my brain
You know it's three weeks, i'm going insane
You know i'd give you everything i've got
For a little peace of mind
The Beatles "I'm So Tired" off of the White Album

Did you know if you play this song backwards where it says "I wonder should I call you..." John is saying "I wish I was not a beatle"? And at the very end of the song is a muffled sound where he is actually saying "Paul is dead man, miss him miss him miss him..." Oh, the big myth! Is Paul McCartney dead?...Heck no! He still rockin out CD's!

blah blah blah blah blah blah blah bored

2005-10-20T17:32:00.000-07:00

Ha ha. I'm going crazy! Oh well. Like that hasn't happend before. We just had our worst, then our best, run throughs of our play ever! I hope all my friends come to see it...*wink wink* on Nov. 3 at Drama Fest...Our at least district traumbauer. Oh well. I don't know why I'm telling you all this.

Another Song I've been thinking about lately...

2005-10-15T17:57:00.000-07:00

On the turning away
From the pale and downtrodden
And the words they say
Which we won't understand
'Don't accept that what's happening
Is just a case of others' suffering
Or you'll find that you're joining in
The turning away
'It's a sin that somehow
Light is changing to shadow
And casting it's shroud
Over all we have known
Unaware how the ranks have grown
Driven on by a heart of stone
We could find that we're all alone
In the dream of the proud
On the wings of the night
As the daytime is stirring
Where the speechless unite
In a silent accord
Using words you will find are strange
And mesmerised as they light the flame
Feel the new wind of change
On the wings of the night
No more turning away
From the weak and the weary
No more turning away
From the coldness inside
Just a world that we all must share
It's not enough just to stand and stare
Is it only a dream that there'll be
No more turning away?

Pink Floyd's "On the Turning Away" off of A Momentary Lapse of Reason

Random Lyrics for Today...

2005-10-11T15:20:00.000-07:00

From morning to night i stayed out of sight
Didn't recognise what i'd become
No more than alive i'd barely survive
In a word...overrun
Won't hear a sound
From my mouth
I've spent too long
On the inside out
My skin is cold
To the human touch
This bleeding heart's
Not beating much
I murmured a vow of silence and now
I don't even hear when i think aloud
Extinguished by light I turn on the night
Wear its darkness with an empty smile
I'm creeping back to life
My nervous system all awry
I'm wearing the inside out
Look at him now
He's paler somehow
But he's coming round
He's starting to choke
It's been so long since he spoke
Well he can have the words right from my mouth
And with these words i can see
Clear through the clouds that covered me
Just give it time then speak my name
Now we can hear ourselves again
I'm holding out
For the day
When all the clouds
Have blown away
I'm with you now
Can speak your name
Now we can hear ourselves again
He's curled into the corner
But still the screen is flickering
With an endless stream of garbage to...curse the place
In a sea of random images
The self-destructing animal
Waiting for the waves to break
He's standing on the threshold
Caught in fiery anger
And hurled into the furnace he'll...curse the place
He's torn in all directions
And the screen is still flickering
Waiting for the flames to break

Pink Floyd's "Wearing the Inside Out" from Division Bell

Auburn Days...

2005-10-03T15:26:00.000-07:00

That was fun! I went to Auburn Saturday morning. I got to see my good friend/cousin Kristin and get to hang out with her. I also got to see my first college football game. (I've watched on TV...mostly uninterested...but actually got into the game this time...) Then I got to go to a few parties with Kristen, of course almost everyone there was entirely drunk...fun stuff...oh well. I'm almost positive I want to go to Auburn now, but my mother wants me to go to UAB...NAH!!!!! I'm a tiger fan...Oh well.

A new beginning....

2005-09-26T20:15:00.000-07:00

What is there that is to end, when there is so much left that is to begin?
A new day, a new life, a new love,
A new fresh awakening to life.
Don't leave an old and forget your good times,
but look back and love them and cherish them with the new!
Begin again as a new friend, but no matter how you change,
Remain our old true friend!